10.10.2005

One year and a new life

It's an interesting day. It was one year ago today that I had my miscarraige. I've done a lot of healing since then and generally, things are fine. I still have my moments, and I suspect I always will. I have learned several things in the last year. One is that I am a strong woman, stronger than I ever knew I could be. I have taken the attitude that while we may not be able to control what happens to us, we can control how we react and respond to those things we'd rather not deal with. I also know that I will cherish every moment I have with my children because I know what it is to have lost a child. I am in absolute wonder of this new life inside of me. Having lost Jacob, this child will be all that much more special. I wouldn't have this baby if I hadn't lost Jacob. Interesting how life works out, isn't it.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

CONGRATULATIONS TO MOMMY STEPH, DADDY JEFF, AND BRAND NEW BABY BOY OWEN GABRIEL!

LOTS OF HUGS,
"AUNT" CAK

Anonymous said...

Congratulations to the three of you. We can't wait to see some pictures.

One thing I wish I did when my little ones were only days old was to tape record their sleeping and mewling sounds. There is a really cool recorder that you can buy at scrapbook stores adn costs under $5 that will do the trick. Then it can be kept in Owen's baby book.

Congrats again,
the Jergers

Anonymous said...

I can't believe how much he looks like you!!!! I guess that is for not being Annabelle ;) Tell Owen to hurry up and get big enough for Brendan to play with. Last night I had a dream you asked me to watch him so you could sleep and I tried to swaddle him and it wouldn't work for anything, then a grizzly bear started chasing us.....dunno lol Can't wait to see him again :)

michele said...

Wait - you had a baby?

And all this time I thought it was bacon weight. And all those pains were from gas. Thanks for clueing me in.